Realising That I’ll Never Fit The Blogging Mould

It goes without saying that I’m definitely more comfortable behind the camera than I am in front of it, which sorta kinda sucks. It seems to come with the territory that if you’re a blogger, to be successful, your Instagram and blog theme need to resemble a magazine. It’s 14:40 in Brisbane as I write this from the end of my Airbnb bed, fighting the urge to roll over and fall asleep because I actually woke up before 9am for the first time in weeks.

Photography, writing and Instagramming were all things I couldn’t wait for when I booked a one way ticket to Australia. The beautiful beaches; the architecture; and the all round experience made it perfect to step up my game in all three aspects. Now, I’ve admired travel accounts for as long as I can remember, and although becoming a ‘professional Instagrammer’ has never been part of my job prospects, I knew it would be pretty awesome to create a memorable portfolio.

So, every time we head to the beach or to somewhere picturesque, I see it as an opportunity for a mini photoshoot. I find my favourite outfits; do my hair; make an effort with my make up; and walk out of the house with some form of new found confidence. I mean, how hard can it actually be to pose for a photograph? But for some reason, being a ‘poser’ just doesn’t come naturally to me. I’ve just spent around an hour trying to find something remotely post-worthy to use on a blog post, and absolutely none of them were anyway near acceptable. Plus, wearing a basic t-shirt with denim shorts isn’t going to capture anyone’s attention, my hair is often a mess because of the windy beaches, and I can’t pose for shit.

On the morning I published this post – Friday the 9th February to be exact, Jack went for an interview in Brisbane; meaning I had some needed time to myself for the first time in three whole months. I grabbed the tripod; my camera; squeezed into skinny jeans (which isn’t easy when you are burnt to a pulp), and posed away. I took loads. Only two pictures were blog worthy and even now I’m questioning whether or not I like them. It took just half an hour before I gave up. I changed back into my comfy clothes, let my hair down and scrolled through Instagram for another half hour – before I came back to this draft.

The thing is; I’m an awkward person and perhaps somewhat self conscious. I have no idea how to stand; how to look; how to smile – do I smile? Or do anything even remotely cool. But I’ve learnt to accept that this is the person I am. I’m my worst critique and I can spot my imperfections a mile off. I have one eye that closes more than the other; my jeans provide me with a muffin top; I’m spotty and my teeth are bigger than my face.

In the world of social media, we are all bombarded by beautiful fashion; luxury settings; incredible photography and perfectly edited pictures – and it’s difficult to understand that this isn’t the ‘norm’. Really, I’m a normal 22 year old Mancunian girl, travelling the world with her boyfriend, whilst trying to make something out of a hobby – taking it too seriously in the process. I’m confident that the content I produce is good enough, but I know my imagery frequently let’s me down. I’m not a glamorous person and I’ve never been the girl who poses on nights out – I genuinely prefer happier having a mess around in front of the camera with Jack.

As much as I’d love to have a beautiful blog and Instagram like all of my favourite social media influencers, it isn’t going to happen any time soon. I hope that one day I’m able to feel confident enough to actually be featured more in pictures; but for now, it’s important to do ‘me’ and create content that I enjoy!

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8 thoughts on “Realising That I’ll Never Fit The Blogging Mould

  1. This is a wonderful post and the fact you’ve been honest and real! I only started blogging as a hobby and it’s so easy to get caught up in the ‘cosmetic’ side of it! Hope you love Australia!! I was living in Sydney for a year now i’m in Brazil! Xx

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    1. Thank you so much! It’s very easy, I find it difficult to prevent myself from comparing to other bloggers 🙈 thank you! Sydney is amazing I loved it! And Brazil also sounds incredible, you’re very lucky! Xx

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  2. This gave me feels Isobel, I am awkward too and this is the reason why most of my pictures for Instagram caption or for the blog are some random candid shots because I can never find a perfectly poised picture of myself for my use.

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  3. I can totally relate to this! Everything you said is exactly what I feel too. I think I’m really awkward too and I’m never going to create really nice pictures for my blog! But that’s ok, that’s me, so it’s cool 🙂 great post! x

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  4. I definitely agree with you on this! I don’t travel often and I much prefer being behind the lens as opposed to being in front of it. It’s really hard to let go of wanting everything to be perfect, pretty and posed but I think my blog is better when I just post what I like without trying too hard. I thought that was the point of blogging! X

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    1. Exactly! I used to love how real blogging used to be, now it just seems to be all about the imagery and the prettiness of your website. I’d much rather read good content and real images over a completely posed photoshoot! x

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